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114/251: The Tongue: Its Power

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Preface: I have not said before, but I do not teach men. I know what Scripture says, and I obey it. I say "friends" (but often think "sisters"), because I know that men will also see this. My writings in this blog should be taken as my curiosities and hungerings for knowledge and not for spouting of knowledge or pontificating, etc.

We make decisions everyday. Words must be chosen carefully. We are told in the Scriptures that we will give an account for idle words. However, if we try to live by the Words in the Scriptures below, shouldn’t we choose to speak life and control our tongues?

I’ve heard old people say things like, "My knees are killing me!" Or a young mom say, "My kids will be the death of me!" Any of us may say, "Oh I have a bad memory!" People say such things everyday…. We think nothing of it. But what if we are speaking death instead of life? What if agents (angels and demons) in the spiritual realm wait to carry out whatever words we speak? I know so little, but I think this Scripture tells us something important. What if this is truly the case? How would our speech differ?!

What would Jesus do? WWJD, right? Or rather, what did Jesus speak? He spoke life. He spoke healing. He spoke love. Father Abraham spoke blessings over His children, as did Isaac and Jacob. The Word says (if we obey Him), "You are blessed coming in and blessed going out. You are blessed in the city and blessed in the country." Etcetera and so forth. So what should we speak? What if it really, really matters??!!

I am a tiny speck of dust in God’s wide world and know so little, but I took this to heart because a mentor cautioned me about it years ago or I heard it in a sermon or something. I think it’s a big deal…. So much that I changed my speech habits.

Recently I was struggling with my memory and realized I was speaking death over my brain by saying, "I can’t remember anything! I have a terrible memory!" Well, that is actually completely untrue. I have an excellent memory! I can remember my very first boyfriend’s phone number, all my friends’ kids’ names for prayer, and tons of Scripture! So God showed me that I had believed a lie. Instead of saying that, I started saying, "Let me remember. Just a moment." or "He has given me a sound mind." And my mind has improved and my memory has expanded!

Even if you want to believe that is just incidental, consider the implications of the verse. In proverbs there is wisdom. Wisdom tells me that this is important. [I only believe I have wisdom, because I believe the Word of God is true and does not return void. He says, "Ask for wisdom and do not doubt and you shall have it." (paraphrase of James 1) I asked, I didn't doubt, I keep asking, He has most likely not given me a stone instead.] We all choose for ourselves how we must live.

So if "the power of life and death is in the tongue," let me choose life!! Let me not spew poison! Friends, be blessed!

"Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit."
Proverbs 18:21 NKJV
http://bible.com/114/pro.18.21.NKJV

And again but differently:

"Words kill, words give life; they’re either poison or fruit—you choose."
Proverbs 18:21 MSG
http://bible.com/97/pro.18.21.MSG

"If anyone among you thinks he is religious, and does not bridle his tongue but deceives his own heart, this one’s religion is useless."
James 1:26 NKJV
http://bible.com/114/jas.1.26.NKJV

"My brethren, let not many of you become teachers, knowing that we shall receive a stricter judgment. For we all stumble in many things. If anyone does not stumble in word, he is a perfect man, able also to bridle the whole body. Indeed, we put bits in horses’ mouths that they may obey us, and we turn their whole body. Look also at ships: although they are so large and are driven by fierce winds, they are turned by a very small rudder wherever the pilot desires. Even so the tongue is a little member and boasts great things. See how great a forest a little fire kindles! And the tongue is a fire, a world of iniquity. The tongue is so set among our members that it defiles the whole body, and sets on fire the course of nature; and it is set on fire by hell. For every kind of beast and bird, of reptile and creature of the sea, is tamed and has been tamed by mankind. But no man can tame the tongue. It  is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison. With it we bless our God and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in the similitude of God. Out of the same mouth proceed blessing and cursing. My brethren, these things ought not to be so. Does a spring send forth fresh water and bitter from the same opening? Can a fig tree, my brethren, bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Thus no spring yields both salt water and fresh."
James 3:1-12 NKJV
http://bible.com/114/jas.3.1-12.NKJV

Sweet Mercy, Goodest, All-Wise Father, who is like You???? Nerry a soul! No one compares to You! You’re in a league of Your own so far that no one even knows the name of Your league or how to get there! You are gracious and compassionate when all around us is meanness and hurtful! You are loving when all else is hatred! You keep things in good, working order while our enemy sows chaos and discord and disunity! In You all things hold together! I find such peace in that Scripture! Be exalted, Holy One! Be lifted higher than all Your beautiful creation! You are clothed in splendor and majesty! You surround Yourself with light as with a garment! You do good things! All Your ways are wonderful and peace! Your purposes are always good! You are pure and holy! You are Greater than all others! You will not share Your glory with another!!! All is done by Your hand and I see You initiate all good that is done in the world! Be blessed, Your Highness! I kiss Your hand and bless You! I extol You! I give You the proper reverence!

You give good things from Your hand! You teach us how to live! You show us great and mighty things which we know not of! Your Words heal, inspire, build up, give life, promote goodwill toward men, and generally do good and not harm! Let our words be like Your words! Let us be like You! Elevate us to be more loving and holier still so that many will see and know Jesus saves!!!! Have Your will in all things that concern me! Please be with my friend from Bible study, Sondra, in her surgery tomorrow and meet her every need! Hear blogger cinthialesly’s prayers and bless her & the three gentlemen who faithfully like my blog! Be compassionate toward those who are compassionate toward me, your bent reed and smallest daughter.

Father, You know I’m a tiny baby here, but alone I pray like a lion! You’re my Own! I ask You with confidence many things for many people, because I know You just want someone to ask! I will ask You small things, and I will ask You for great things for others! I think asking You for a godly husband is a great thing, so big, like a miracle, and I feel the same about You making me a missionary with a husband! I know You put it in my heart to ask, because You are the Initiator of All Good Things! It doesn’t come from me surely. No one thinks my ideas are all that good. Haha But I will ask my DaddyGod so He can show off and make His Name be greatly known!! Hallelujah! Be praised, Straight One! I love You, Father! Thank You for sending Jesus!!! I ask believing You hear me and ask in the name of the Messiah, Jesus, Amen!

113/252: The Tongue: Pleasant & Gracious Words

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I’ve been heavily discouraged over the past week or so, because of the correction of others and a lack of encouragement. I didn’t realize why I was so discouraged when I know that I’m not being disobedient to God, and I wondered why He was allowing me to feel crushed by the words of others. Tonight I’ve realized what He must be doing!

Am I not positioning myself to conquer my tongue lately? Yes! And He is showing me all these Scriptures that show the power of the tongue! I’ve studied them all hard for years, but now is the time!

He is also letting me wear the discouragement that comes from much correction and idle words. (Should we not be cautious about correcting others who are not our children or those who have given us authority over them?) He is afflicting me with the weight the misused, incautious tongue brings. From so many directions it comes too! Mercy!

Aha! Well I’m glad to know why!!!! Hallelujah! Let me be afflicted so I may learn Your ways and learn caution and peace and righteousness! Let me be taught by my God! Hallelujah!

"Pleasant words are like a honeycomb, Sweetness to the soul and health to the bones."
Proverbs 16:24 NKJV
http://bible.com/114/pro.16.24.NKJV

Oh Sweetest, Most Gracious Heavenly Father, let me be afflicted to learn Your way of speaking! I submit myself to You to learn to speak pleasant and gracious words! I submit myself to You to make my tongue Your tool! Make my words pleasant and gracious! Make my words sweet to the soul! Make my words healing to the bones! I give myself over to You for Your correction and training! For Your Words are pleasant to me! Your Words are sweetness to my soul! Your Words are healing to my bones! Make me like You! Cause my tongue to be used in mighty ways for Your Kingdom! Let my words and my tongue take Your Word far into the darkness and shine forth Your Light! Heal Your people thru me! I submit myself to You for whatever You want to accomplish thru me!

I see so many pressed down and crushed by the enemy, Lord! Move to hear our prayers, Gracious One! Let us be changed and healed and helped by Your Grace! Let us experience victory daily instead of defeat! Let Your people not be oppressed by our enemy, but let Your people be healed and changed and well and let us rise up to praise the Healer!

Majesty, be exalted! Be lifted up, King Jesus! Let Your Name be greatly praised here among us! Our King is among us! We lift Your Name, Jesus! We worship You, Jesus! We lift You up! Be magnified in the praises of Your people! Be exalted! You are Beautiful to us! You are holy and magnificent! I long to see Your face! King Jesus, let me see Your face! Dance around, Father, in our high praises that we offer to You for Your good pleasure! Be pleased with us! Delight in us, Good One! Sing over us, Exalted One! Dance in delight at the obedience of Your children who praise You and love You! I love You, Master! I love You, my God, my Lord, my Maker, my Husband, my Friend, my Savior! You are my Hope! You are my Everything!

I will sing Your song! You are my Song! What You sing, I sing! What you pray, I pray! Where You go, I go! Whom You love, I love! I’m following You so closely! Scoop me up and swing me around! Let me feel Your close love! Be near me, Sweetest Father! You are mine! And I am Yours! I love no one more than I love You! Have everything. I’m Yours and I give You everything I have and all that I am! I have so little, but I’m in Your hands! And I wanna see Your face! You are my God! I am cuddling close to You for everything! I’m listening, Teacher! Almighty God, do wonders so that I can see more about You! Know me. Let me know You more! I need You more!

Thank You for encouraging me today by telling me that You delight in me and that You are singing over me! Be blessed by my words to You also in Jesus’ name, Amen! And hear the whole first prayer that got deleted and save it at Home til I get there, Father! You liked it, didn’t You!? Amen! (This is the Aug. 29th post.)

112/253: Speaking the Words of God

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"For He whom God has sent speaks the words of God, for God does not give the Spirit by measure."
John 3:34 NKJV
http://bible.com/114/jhn.3.34.NKJV

Dearest Father in Heaven, let me be sent and let me speak the words of God so that lives may be changed by the power of Jesus who came to save us. My words fall short, but Your Word is living and active and MOVES in hearts! Accomplish Your work in this blog and bless its readers especially those who comment in Jesus name amen!

111/254: He Must Increase, I Must Decrease

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I want you to know how glad I am that it’s me sitting here in this jail and not you. There’s a lot of suffering to be entered into in this world—the kind of suffering Christ takes on. I welcome the chance to take my share in the church’s part of that suffering. When I became a servant in this church, I experienced this suffering as a sheer gift, God’s way of helping me serve you, laying out the whole truth.
Colossians 1:24-25 MSG
http://bible.com/97/col.1.24-25.MSG

Dearest Father, I have no other gods before You. I am not here to serve man but You only! I am so glad that You have allowed me to be afflicted in these ways, because it makes me pray and pray harder and when I have no one else around to pray fervently more. Today I know I have not prayed like I should, and I missed You! But You do all this work, and I just get to join You! I’m so glad You let me go to work with You, Father! I love helping You do Your work! I know not many read my blog even though it shoots out to my 900 Facebook friends daily, but I don’t think You waste anything so let there be a purpose even in this. Since I really feel You have all the good ideas and that even this one came from You too, I will obey You by continuing. Thank You for encouragement enough for today!

God, I’m always happy with You; it’s people I struggle with often!! But since You say You want me to love them, I will and I will love hard. Be most glorified Father and let Your name be made Greater because of any small thing I do. I realized I leave my mark wherever I go, because You made me salt and light! And no one is like me, because You have a purpose for me. Make me like You!! I wanna be more like my DaddyGod! I love You more than swimming!!! I really do. Hear my prayers for others and for these things in Jesus’ name, Amen! (This is the August 28th post.)

110/255: I may shut down my blog

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I’m not sure, but I may stop blogging. And I may deactivate my Facebook account. I don’t seem to say anything relevant to anyone else’s life so I may need to just be silent. When I say something, people criticize me for this or that. And I have prayer journals for baring my soul where the critics can’t see. If I don’t get to say what I want, then why would I subject myself to the abuse? If no one reads it, does a blog or a book still need to be written?

Transparency Experiment: Negative result. Fail. No Acts Church going on here. :'(

"He said: “I am ‘The voice of one crying in the wilderness: “Make straight the way of the Lord ,”’ as the prophet Isaiah said.”
John 1:23 NKJV
http://bible.com/114/jhn.1.23.NKJV

I’m not going to pray here tonight, because I don’t think it benefits anyone. I can pray alone without typing it.

John the Baptist out. Be blessed!

109/256: Trying to encourage myself

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I’m starting to realize that the more people know about me, the less they know me. Because I know I’m God’s workmanship and only God’s job, I see that unsolicited advice and critiques can be painful even when unfounded. Because I keep experiencing this pain 1. I just want to be silent after I say this and 2. I see I need to also be careful with assuming that people outside my own children are my business. They too are God’s workmanship. (and yes I do mind my own business)

I’m grieved all day, friends, and I have tried so hard not to be. Yet people cannot see me and my value. God uses strangers to affirm me at times, because I suppose maybe He has allowed my friends to be blind… Well, they are blind for some reason, but maybe I shouldn’t blame God… yet He can bear it if it is His doing.

Mankind’s approval is so elusive. And I’m not running to Facebook with a funny joke in order to find approval. I need time in the Cleft of the Rock where I am accepted, where my hard work matters and is seen, where Someone believes the best about me always, where Someone remembers my heart, my motives, where SOMEONE actually encourages me!! I wish I could be all cheerful for your sake’s, but I just hope I don’t completely stop talking to people because this is a new level of ridiculosity. (I don’t care if that’s not a word.)

I’m trying so hard to make friends and so outgoing and friendly, yet remain so invisible and overlooked…even by close friends. I am trying to encourage myself, but eventually I will need someone close to me to stop being too busy and seeeeeeeee me who looks upon others and their needs almost everyday. I do not say this to boast, because I am only a tiny person doing so little yet I try to make a difference and I try to encourage others and pray, etc. Maybe I am missing something……. Idk… Forgive me, friends, for not being Molly Sunshine tonight. Be blessed!

"In the multitude of words sin is not lacking, But he who restrains his lips is wise. The tongue of the righteous is choice silver; The heart of the wicked is  worth little. The lips of the righteous feed many, But fools die for lack of wisdom. The blessing of the Lord makes one rich, And He adds no sorrow with it."
Proverbs 10:19-22 NKJV
http://bible.com/114/pro.10.19-22.NKJV

Lord God, Father God, Strongest Dad, teach me silence if it be Your will and even in that be greatly glorified. But please God, relent!!!! I need encouragement in this desert!!! I’m surrounded by critics!!!!!!! If You are Love when do I meet Your children, Your people who know how to LOVE???!!! Relent please! I am not complaining, I’m broken down!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD, YOU ARE A WONDERFUL FATHER! I’m just trying not to trip over Your kids, please! Help! And, yes I am aware that I’m a cactus so often, but please let SOMEONE see beyond! Please I ask in Jesus’ name, Amen.

108/257: God moved!!! Praise Him!!!

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Let God be praised! God moved in my situation, and I was offered a full-time job today!!!!!!! God is soooooo good! He has sustained the widow and the fatherless during this entire time and provided opportunities to work cleaning houses, painting apartments, working a temp job, working as a substitute teacher, and other ways to provide for my family! He deserves so much praise for doing all these things! I hunger to bring Him glory, honor, and praise!

It is a job offer to work nights, and if I do not accept it I will still work five days a week as a sub until a better day job comes. However, I must pray so carefully for wisdom and understanding. I am not the mom who leaves my children (preschool age or teenage) at home alone at night. My own mom will be working part of the evening and unavailable for her care so I must consider everything carefully. God has shown me that at the end of the day, it is my decision and His and no one else lives with it. That is not easy for people who love us, but I know, for one, my mom has told me she supports whatever I decide. However, some friends have prayed so hard that they have a vested interest. I pray I do not disappoint anyone, but ultimately God only has redeemed me so that I am not my own.

I only include this in my blog to 1. bring God praise and 2. to update you when it has been a major part of my journey. I may not share my decision, but please know that God has provided 5 days a week of work either way and He deserves praise, so much praise!!!!!

A security guard said about me today, "You are not trying to be an undercover Christian, and you are not ashamed to let people know you walk with God! I like that!" Haha No. She was right! I am not ashamed of my God, and He is not ashamed of me. Why would anyone be ashamed of God?! He sent His only Son to die for me so that I might live!!!! And He’s so super great!!! The Greatest!!!

Someone said today that a man may not want a woman who is so transparent as I am. 1. I do this for God’s glory. 2. God is able to send a godly man who is so squeaky clean and upright and trusts in me so much that he shall not concern himself with what I tell about us knowing I will honor him in all ways. My enemy cannot make me doubt God’s abilities when God Himself made me this way and has done this work of transparency in me. God can be trusted!!! Be blessed!

"Happy is he who has the God of Jacob for his help, Whose hope is in the Lord his God, Who made heaven and earth, The sea, and all that is in them; Who keeps truth forever, Who executes justice for the oppressed, Who gives food to the hungry. The Lord gives freedom to the prisoners. The Lord opens the eyes of the blind; The Lord raises those who are bowed down; The Lord loves the righteous. The Lord watches over the strangers; He relieves the fatherless and widow; But the way of the wicked He turns upside down. The Lord shall reign forever— Your God, O Zion, to all generations. Praise the Lord!"
Psalms 146:5-10 NKJV
http://bible.com/114/psa.146.5-10.NKJV

Dearest Father, oh yes, I am happy!! I am happy being Yours!! In a dry and weary land, YOU are the Rain!!!!!!!!!!!!! No one compares to You! You make me laugh and dance and praise and twirl and sing and shout!!!!!

Be with Joe whom I spoke with today who is so drawn to me, because of You in me and called me such a pleasure and said for no reason that anyone who can’t get along with you, Kelly, has something wrong with them. I know it is You, Lord, who does this! You make the cactus in the desert to flower!!! I know he is hungry for You, His Maker even though he doesn’t follow You like his parents surely prayed these many years. Please draw Joe into the Kingdom, dearest Father, with his exceptional gift of exhortation that You gave him. You cause even the unrighteous to affirm and praise Your daughter, Your servant when others cannot see me for now. Joe will not soon forget me, I know! Maybe it’s not so bad that You made me such an anomaly and so extremely different from others. Help Joe who wants his beliefs to be private when I told him plainly what You showed me about him. I will obey You always! You are greatly to be praised!

You do so many good things! You gave me a job offer! I’m so happy!!!!!!!!! Thank You, DaddyGod! I hope many praise and dance before You for doing this!

Please let me not be put to shame for putting my children’s needs ahead of a desire for more money, which is fleeting and withers away. Thank You for reminding others that I am a hard worker no matter what I do and a hard prayer and do things 5 times more thoroughly than any other so that I excel always because I expect it of myself and want You to be more greatly praised!! Why do they judge me as the accuser, my enemy judges? Why do some not trust me and just treat me with love? I cannot bear with this world sometimes Father and long for Home. Please don’t let me be put to shame when I seek so hard after bringing You high praises!

I pray for wisdom in all things and listen long for You! Have a good shower in all the praises we bring You for all You do for me and please joy in me and delight in me, because You are my Joy and my Delight! I love You so much! I will do anything You ask! Be glorified greatly in the name of my Savior, Jesus, amen! (This is the Aug 25th post.)

107/258: God is Light, Walk in Light

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My God spoke words and light became. What did yours do? :)

Busy day. My apologies for saying little.

I don’t know if these two references to light are related at all in the original language though I cannot imagine why they wouldn’t be. 

In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. The earth was without form, and void; and darkness was on the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters. Then God said, “Let there be light”; and there was light. And God saw the light, that it  was good; and God divided the light from the darkness. God called the light Day, and the darkness He called Night. So the evening and the morning were the first day.
Genesis 1:1-5 NKJV
http://bible.com/114/gen.1.1-5.NKJV

This is the message which we have heard from Him and declare to you, that God is light and in Him is no darkness at all. If we say that we have fellowship with Him, and walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. But if we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses us from all sin.
I John 1:5-7 NKJV
http://bible.com/114/1jn.1.5-7.NKJV

(I will continue tomorrow with what I spoke of yesterday, but this is some of it.) Be blessed!

Oh Father, my prayer is that we would walk in Light, and You are the Light, which guides us Home. You are Home; You are Heaven to me. I don’t have to wait til I get there to learn how to talk to You, to learn how to walk like You, to learn how to praise You… You already spoke the Words. All I have to do is start walking in Your Light, which is Love. I can know You now!!!! Yay! I’m so glad! Who is better than You?! Nope. There is no one better, no one greater! You are Everything! Help me live like I know it! Teach us, Lord! Help me form a long chain of people linked together that I can bring Home with me! Even Chinese students! Receive our praises! (This is the August 24th post.)

106/259: Hatred In Return for Friendship

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In this, the psalmist refers to two people praying…. Find each one…one is assumed. But God is still teaching me… I may blog about this tomorrow though…

My God, whom I praise, do not remain silent, for people who are wicked and deceitful have opened their mouths against me; they have spoken against me with lying tongues. With words of hatred they surround me; they attack me without cause. In return for my friendship they accuse me, but I am a man of prayer. They repay me evil for good, and hatred for my friendship. Appoint someone evil to oppose my enemy; let an accuser stand at his right hand. When he is tried, let him be found guilty, and may his prayers condemn him. May his days be few; may another take his place of leadership. May his children be fatherless and his wife a widow. May his children be wandering beggars; may they be driven from their ruined homes. May a creditor seize all he has; may strangers plunder the fruits of his labor. May no one extend kindness to him or take pity on his fatherless children. May his descendants be cut off, their names blotted out from the next generation. May the iniquity of his fathers be remembered before the Lord ; may the sin of his mother never be blotted out. May their sins always remain before the Lord , that he may blot out their name from the earth. For he never thought of doing a kindness, but hounded to death the poor and the needy and the brokenhearted. He loved to pronounce a curse— may it come back on him. He found no pleasure in blessing— may it be far from him. He wore cursing as his garment; it entered into his body like water, into his bones like oil. May it be like a cloak wrapped about him, like a belt tied forever around him. May this be the Lord ’s payment to my accusers, to those who speakevil of me. But you, Sovereign Lord , help me for your name’s sake; out of the goodness of your love, deliver me. For I am poor and needy, and my heart is wounded within me. I fade away like an evening shadow; I am shaken off like a locust. My knees give way from fasting; my body is thin and gaunt. I am an object of scorn to my accusers; when they see me, they shake their heads. Help me, Lord my God; save me according to your unfailing love. Let them know that it is your hand, that you, Lord , have done it. While they curse, may you bless; may those who attack me be put to shame, but may your servant rejoice. May my accusers be clothed with disgrace and wrapped in shame as in a cloak. With my mouth I will greatly extol the Lord ; in the great throng of worshipers I will praise him. For he stands at the right hand of the needy, to save their lives from those who would condemn them.
Psalm 109:1-31 NIV
http://bible.com/111/psa.109.1-31.NIV

Dear Father, teach me rightly how to pray. I will do whatever You say, Lord! In Jesus’ name, Amen! (This is the August 23rd post.)

105/260: My Grateful Keyboard & Loving My God

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My three  most used words  to start a text: Thank, I, and Oh. :)
My three most used words to start a text: Thank, I, and Oh. :)

I am so thankful that God orchestrated things for my mom to move across the state to my town for her educational and career pursuits, she thinks. I think it was for me and my daughters, but I’m an idealist and Pollyanna. :) Who can say? We moved her today so I am beat!

I got a call from my one of my nieces and nephews tonight!!! She is in Pre-K and he is in Kindergarten. They live halfway across the country because their mom is working on her PhD, and I miss them so much! We talked of many important topics, such as what colors are in the rainbow and how if I don’t watch it they are gonna kiss me on the head! Haha I love those little sugar boogers! I’m so thankful that they love me so much, and my nephew asks when he can live with me. Anytime, little buddy! :)

Well, I did it finally! I finally got my phone’s keyboard to understand that the prediction I most often need available are these words: “Thank you.” I am always grateful, and when I’m not, I’m extremely thankful! Hey, I get excited about pistachios and times of gentle, sunny showers! I’m easy to please! I’m like a little child, right? By the age of 12, I had to behave as a mature adult so I have learned to play. I just lift my arms, twirl around, and sing. Thank You, God, for this moment and Your love permeating it to the fullest measure! Let me enter a quiet post office with many people, and just see if I won’t start singing, “Jesus loves me,” and have others join in. :) His Presence is my Joy! His love gives me power! Growing His fame and praise is my passion!

http://bible.com/114/php.4.4-7.nkjv
Rejoice in the Lord always. Again I will say, rejoice!
Let your gentleness be known to all men. The Lord is at hand.
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

Holy Father, I rejoice in Your love for me! No one is like You! Let everybody else do what they want, but I’m gonna love my God! I’m gonna scoot so close and be so near my DaddyGod! Though none go with me, I will still follow You, Jesus! You’re my whole LIFE! If someone doesn’t want to be my friend, because I talk about You too much, then let them go. I can think of nothing Greater! I’m not afraid to be alone with You as my closest friend! If someone wants to kill me, because I hold fast to Christ, then let them give me greater joy and let my eternal life begin in Heaven!

Thank You for having my Momma come here near to us! Thank You for letting the babies call me! Thank You again for my blessed phone, a Droid Maxx, (and not a Mini ;) which is a ministry in its own right and was a completely free gift from a generous person I haven’t seen in 25 years who simply knew I needed one! Who is like our God?! He causes us to be a family! Thank You for healing my friend, Matthew, even now and that he could sing an hour after his surgery, because surely he is of the sons of Korah and made to praise You! You are the Rock of our salvation! And the Rock won’t move! Even in the storm or the surgery bed, we can sing!!

Though others may be tripping up over how long You are taking to provide a FT job for me, Lord, I hear You saying it’s not long now! I am completely content with being a baby bird with You as my Mother Hen, but let Your name be greatly praised!! Do it, Lord! Do it! I trust You! Now that Mom lives here, I won’t have to worry about my teen daughter being alone at home at night. Your timing is perfect! I am dancing in Your Presence, Father, and I’m loving You! I’m loving You, Father! I lift my hands to give You praise and I don’t care who sees, because You are Everything! I’m not hiding my face from You, Father! I’m right here! Please don’t hide Your face from me, but instead shine down on me Your love and sing so loud over me that I can HEAR You! Really loud and bad like me!! Okay?! Haha I hold fast to You!! Hear my prayers and write them down so we can laugh over them when I get Home to You! I only want Heaven if You’re there! In the name of Jesus, I pray to the One True God, Amen!

104/261: Be Ye Kind One To Another

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All I can think about tonight is my sweet little Cubbies class at church!!!! Let a 3 year old girl pull my hair! It is a kindness! Haha She really just liked holding it and not letting go, but that is my heart for smallest children! It was a blessing to be touched!!

This week at church, AWANA started back, and I have the deep privilege of sharing God’s Word with the 3 year old class!!! What could be better than that!!??! I know that not everyone is called to this age group though I don’t understand that at all, but I do have a God-given gift with infants and young preschoolers. (I can make babies sleep when others are in awe.) With them, I expect nothing so that I do so well with them.

This first week, I was being instructed by a sub since I am new to our church. (And it has been a few days since I helped with AWANA Sparks and Cubbies.) I will only say my approach to handling children this age differs from others at times. Right or wrong, I feel children this age, maybe any age, need more gentleness. Order can still be maintained with gentleness. Do you want to be scolded? I don’t. I will easily obey willingly! Only please do not scold me nor humiliate me publicly and shame me. :'( Shouldn’t it be so with small children or even teens? Oh gentleness, sisters. Gentleness. Tenderheartedly embrace them. Remember how Jesus received the little children unto Himself. I dare say it happened often whenever He saw a child.

Here is my teaching philosophy for teaching the Bible to 3 year olds:
1. Be oh so tenderhearted and dare not crush the child’s spirit. Overlook much misbehavior and give much grace. Stillness cannot be expected realistically at this age, and lack of it should not be seen as disobedience! 2. Consider that anything they say may be very poignant as they have most recently been in God’s own hand and thereby near Him more recently than you. Listen. Listen again. 3. Count it all joy to have such small fingers in your hair, on your face, and holding your hand. (Some day you may have teenagers, which are heaven’s sandpaper.) 4. Equally count it a privilege to teach such small ears the Name of the Merciful King Who Saves and His Word. Repetition and song making help. 5. Play. Be a little child. Give yourself permission to play during play time. Do You think God will not have play time in Heaven?

I’m so blessed!!!! My one who needed the most grace wanted to hold a strand of my long hair when I held her in my lap when she was restless during story time. And later while she colored with one hand, she held my hair with the other. (I was staying near her to keep her from being scolded. My basic temperament is Protector.) These are gifts from God, friends, gifts of touch sent to me from Heaven!! I was blessed with these tender touches in this desert so that touch is so blessed now! I cannot wait for next Wednesday!!

http://bible.com/1/eph.4.32.kjv
And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ’s sake hath forgiven you.

Sweetness of Heaven, Heaven’s Own Honey, Jesus, Sweetest Name I Know, I thank You for tender touches by tiny fingers, which I count a treasure! I thank You for hearing my prayers for my family and friends! You make me right in all my ways and pure before You! Though sin was strong, Jesus, You’re stronger! Though my shame was great, Jesus, You’re greater! You conquered it all for me! Thank You! And thank You for always treating me with gentleness and tenderlovingkindness! I am a small 3 year old in my heart and come to You as a little child always! I hold Your hand, Father, and I walk with You trying to be like You. I want to be like my Father and be so loving! Help me treat my teen daughters as I treat 3 year olds. Help me be gentle with all people, even in traffic somehow! We need much grace, Lord, much grace and forgiveness. Thank You for caring for us always! In Jesus’ name amen!

103/262: Let God Be Praised!

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Thank you for your prayers for Matthew! God will reward you! He texted me to say he is really sore and tired but they are sending him home. Let God be praised!

As for me, I am ill today and for another reason I am in need of great prayer. Unspoken. I need grace to reign over me in every way or I will not bear up. Let many trust and say the Lord is good!

http://bible.com/114/psa.147.5.nkjv
Great is our Lord, and mighty in power; His understanding is infinite.

Our Father Who is in Heaven, Hallowed be Your name. Your Kingdom come, Your will be done on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. Forgive us our sins and help us forgive those who sin against us. Lead us not into temptation but deliver us from the evil one. For Yours is the Kingdom and the power and the glory forever. In Jesus’ name, Amen. Also let many praise Your name for Your great faithfulness toward Matthew! In Jesus’ name I ask! Amen

102/263: Praying for my friend

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All I have to say today is….

Please pray for Matthew, my friend who has neck surgery at 6 am tomorrow.

http://bible.com/114/psa.43.3.nkjv
Oh, send out Your light and Your truth! Let them lead me; Let them bring me to Your holy hill And to Your tabernacle.

Heavenly Father, You are most merciful and I ask You to hear all my prayers for Matthew and my other friends. You know, God, that Matthew honors you so I ask you to honor him with healing. You know our every need. Help us! Please bless any who pray for Matthew or agree with my prayer and meet their needs. In Jesus’ name, amen!

101/264: Questions About The Work I’m To Do

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This is Elevation Worship singing, "Raised to Life." I shared the lyrics for this yesterday, but it remains with me today.

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This is Bethel Music singing, "No longer slaves."

I have these things on my heart and want to confide in someone… Yet no one close to me can bear what I will say here. So I will write my words for only you three readers of this blog whom I have never met. Thank you for being faithful to read my odd blog. God will conceal a matter He wants concealed, and He will let whomever He chooses to know it.

Friend, I’m staying in a mindset of praise and riding on the prayers of friends today. I’m in need of prayer for strength to withstand an attack from my enemy who knows I am staying so close to my Father and am asking so much for help for my friends and family. "Apart from Him, I can do nothing." "In Him, all things hold together." I can do nothing of myself, but only what I see Jesus do. Jesus does what He sees the Father do. What I see Jesus do, I know He wants me to do, because the Great Commission doesn’t just say, "Go." That was only the first word. Right? And all the power of Christ is in His name, right? And am I not His hands and feet? So am I not supposed to do as the apostles did? They worked hard for the cause of the gospel. I look to Paul. Am I not supposed to labor in the same work with the same diligence? I think so! Are not blind eyes gaining sight?! Yes! My own!!

It says this below and so this is a command from Jesus, correct? I am learning this and so in learning there is questioning. If I am wrong, I seek correction. This is what I see He commands believers to do:
http://bible.com/114/mrk.16.15-18.nkjv
And He said to them, “Go into all the world and preach the gospel to every creature.  He who believes and is baptized will be saved; but he who does not believe will be condemned.  And these signs will follow those who believe: In My name they will cast out demons; they will speak with new tongues;  they will take up serpents; and if they drink anything deadly, it will by no means hurt them; they will lay hands on the sick, and they will recover.”

So am I not supposed to go, preach, cast out, speak, take up, and lay hands? Does not all of that apply to any believer? (Yes, I understand that a woman must teach only women, etc. Don’t get tangled up in those details for the purpose of my question please.) He says to me that it does!! I don’t try to wonder if I can do these things, because I have never tried. Everything under the sun has a beginning! And I do not look around to see why others aren’t doing such things. No, I keep my eyes focused on the One who spoke the Words! He commanded me. Am I not telling Him daily I will obey Him in all things?

And in the King James version it says, "damned" not "condemned." I don’t want to be damned! I want to believe!!!

So I want Him to help me begin doing these things. I confess to you that I told someone two days ago that I was willing to lay hands on them. Yes, I think he decided I was off my rocker. (So did I! But I knew the Father watched!) Since I would have to travel some distance, he said it wasn’t necessary when others at his church had already laid hands on him. Wasn’t he still plagued with pain? so I thought the job still needed doing. And why did I think God would do it through me? Only one reason besides God’s abundant mercy: because God caused me to greatly labor long in prayer for this one friend long beseeching the Father for his healing. It seemed so clear to me that God wanted to do it!! Otherwise why would He have someone pray it so fervently? And I was the one to obey. And only I know how the Father led in prayer so that maybe only the Father and I can know (or if someone reads the ones I wrote down). But I can tell you, friend, I felt God wanted to be believed for something impossible and something miraculous! He was in charge of my prayers on that day and in charge of everything concerning me!!! And because the Kingdom is one where He uses the most unlikely, I knew He could use even me in spite of my weakness and lack of knowledge and lack of skill! Could He not?

Am I deceived? I don’t think so. I think I know how much He holds me now so that nothing I do is of myself! Everything I have now is in Him! He would not let me be deceived! Not right now He wouldn’t. Right now I am so dependant on Him.

But no hands were applied this time. I tried not to have my feelings hurt. I tried to remember that my friend hadn’t spent so much time lining up with God that day for his healing while I had. (He had another task. Yet maybe he could have sincerely prayed before deciding. That isn’t for me to say or judge.) I tried to think about how I would worry about a friend if they told me this. I try to encourage myself, because apparently no one knows I’m taking a year off to position myself deeply in the Cleft of the Rock. :/ Will He not position Himself closer to me also? Maybe only I know those verses that say He will. I know so little so I need understanding, wisdom, and discernment for this even.

Father, help me forgive those who cannot see me or You in me. Maybe I wanted my friend to be healed more than he did. Maybe we all fear success and victory or just the supernatural in general? Maybe I am missing something because I know so little, but wouldn’t God keep me from missing anything? I was completely obedient, friend, completely! Even rending my heart and making myself weaker than normal for this purpose! I pray the next time that the person who needs help doesn’t see me but only the Healer.

Or maybe I am not a true believer…. See, I search everything! I turn over every rock for understanding! God will show me. Maybe someday I will have that chance again with someone, and I pray I’m as ready as I then was or more! Will you pray for me? I truly struggle now and have many to pray for so that your prayers for me will fuel the prayers for many indeed. Be blessed! And abundantly so for all the ways you are currently being obedient to God!

http://bible.com/114/jhn.5.19-20.nkjv
Then Jesus answered and said to them, “Most assuredly, I say to you, the Son can do nothing of Himself, but what He sees the Father do; for whatever He does, the Son also does in like manner.  For the Father loves the Son, and shows Him all things that He Himself does; and He will show Him greater works than these, that you may marvel.

This is my prayer tonight: (Forgive me if any verses are missing, but every time my Bible app updates I have struggles in all my work.)
http://bible.com/114/psa.143.1-12.nkjv
Hear my prayer, O Lord , Give ear to my supplications! In Your faithfulness answer me, And in Your righteousness. Do not enter into judgment with Your servant, For in Your sight no one living is righteous. For the enemy has persecuted my soul; He has crushed my life to the ground; He has made me dwell in darkness, Like those who have long been dead. Therefore my spirit is overwhelmed within me; My heart within me is distressed. I remember the days of old; I meditate on all Your works; I muse on the work of Your hands. I spread out my hands to You; My soul longs for You like a thirsty land. Selah Answer me speedily, O Lord ; My spirit fails! Do not hide Your face from me, Lest I be like those who go down into the pit. Cause me to hear Your lovingkindness in the morning, For in You do I trust; Cause me to know the way in which I should walk, For I lift up my soul to You. Deliver me, O Lord , from my enemies; In You I take shelter. Teach me to do Your will, For You are my God; Your Spirit is good. Lead me in the land of uprightness. Revive me, O Lord , for Your name’s sake! For Your righteousness’ sake bring my soul out of trouble. In Your mercy cut off my enemies, And destroy all those who afflict my soul; For I am Your servant.
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Lord, You inhabit the praises of Your people. Help me find the exact verse that teaches me that. I praise You! Jesus, You’re greater! Hear my prayer above and heal my friends, all of them, even the ones who can’t see me or believe in me. Bless them all with many good things according to Your unfailing mercy! Cause others to pray for me so that I can rise up and pray for those You have given me. Everything I do I do in Your name and for Your glory! When they see me, they will think of You. Make it so, Lord! Be magnified and glorified in my life and my blog. Please don’t hide Yourself from me when I long so deeply to see Your face! In Jesus’ name, Amen!

#58 If not me, then who?

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Kelly Zooms:

“He’s got the whole world in His hands, red and yellow, black and white, they are precious in His sight.” In a children’s hymn I learned to love all peoples, all tribes, all tongues. It appears to me, though I know so little, that the aboriginal peoples in Australia or South America or anywhere should be treated the same as anyone else. If not, then we should uphold their cause as this writer is doing. I am happy to support someone who upholds and obeys Scripture and upholds the cause of the weak.
Additionally, entirely separate and not in any way associated with this particular writer, the website, Cultural Survival, works to stand up for the cause of aboriginal peoples and is a good resource for those who value social justice.
Standing up for those who cannot stand up for themselves is just one thing that Isaiah 58 refers to as “true fasting,” and in so doing we are promised a few things you may want to check out for yourself! :)
Kelly

Originally posted on Gold Autumn Leaves:

I’ve been thinking about whether or not to write this post for a few weeks now but I’ve (obviously) decided to. I never intended to make any political statements on this blog and I don’t intend to now. But the last few weeks have seen Australia in a racist divide. At the end of July, a prominent Indigenous AFL player, Adam Goodes, took indefinite leave from his club after years of bullying and name calling from the crowds. Some say the booing is just part of sports, others say it’s a clear sign of racism in Australia. I guess the only people who know the reason are those doing the booing and the name calling.

What I found fascinating about this situation was that it literally had the while nation talking and people were staunch in their thinkings. No-one was sitting on the fence and there appeared to be no…

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Giving Is Gaining

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Kelly Zooms:

I think his title says it all, and I agree, “Giving is Gaining.” Let us all be givers of God’s Light, God’s Truth, God’s Life, & God’s Way. Father, let us be Your hands and feet, and let us be Your mouthpiece in the darkness in Jesus’ name!
Remain in Him, friends! Be blessed!
Kelly

Originally posted on The Narrow Path:

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Matthew 19:23-24

Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Amen, I say to you, it will be hard for one who is rich to enter the kingdom of heaven. Again I say to you, it is easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle than for one who is rich to enter the kingdom of God.”

In scripture the “kingdom of heaven” is sometimes translated the “kingdom of God.” We are called to help build that Kingdom…the place God desires for us…here, now and always. Whenever we reach out to others in love, mercy, forgiveness and compassion…we are cooperating with God in bringing this kingdom into the present moment (“Thy kingdom come…on earth as it is in heaven”). Being rich is not a bad thing in itself. Rich people can do much good with their wealth. But wealth can entice people to immerse themselves in pleasures and ignore…

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100/265: 100 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Day 100 …………. Tough day really.

It has been…
100 days of not dating.
100 days of seeking God.
100 days of not having a man regularly speak loving words to me…or not many loving words to be heard at all, man or otherwise.
100 days of no sex of any kind.
100 days of preparation for something not fully known.
100 days of intense loneliness.
100 days of intense prayer.
100 days of prayer journaling.
100 days of intercession for others.
100 days of prayer journaling intercessory prayers.
100 days of no soda.
100 days of tasting that the Lord is good!
100 days of intense Bible study.
100 days of Scripture texts received and sent.
100 days of feeling rejected by others.
100 days of feeling and sometimes being scolded by others.
100 days of aching for affirmation of any kind.
100 days of intensely pursuing friendship with many.
100 days of being a friend daily to many.
100 days of feeling friendless or feeling pursued by only one or two. (for God’s purposes in this journey)
100 days of finding my identity in Christ.
100 days of hoping I will not be put to shame for being different while attempting something different.
100 days of books and words.
100 days of blogging.
100 days of wishing this blog could be less awkward but knowing nothing of how to make it so.
100 days of working hard.
100 days of unemployment or underemployment (far more days really).
100 days of job hunting.
100 days of hating job hunting.
100 days of every soul asking if I applied at so and so company.
100 days of rejection by all manner of employers. (for God’s purpose of being my Provider.)
100 days of asking friends to read my blog.
100 days of knowing they don’t want to. Haha
100 days of insecurity.
100 days of knowing I’m secure in Christ and that "in Him all things hold together!"
100 days being set apart.
100 days of God removing distractions to help me focus intently on Him.
100 days of God’s miraculous provision!
100 days of giving God praise!
100 days of God’s faithfulness!!!

I don’t recommend this level of a fast to anyone, and I wish I hadn’t heard Andy Stanley give the challenge. Truly! But here’s why… Because I am an overachiever, and I do not know how to do only one easy thing. I cannot just fast from dating. No, I need to blog about it too! Haha And I decided to fast from Facebook too until God gives me a FT job while we are at it! (This is also difficult for my friends.) And then Twitter even! No. I don’t recommend this level of setting oneself apart for holy purposes. Because not many are able. Today, honestly, I am not able either…my spirit is pressed down…not a victorious day at all. But His mercies are new every morning!

Tonight someone said, "Well, I’m not like you, Kelly! I can’t go a year without sex!!"

I said to my friend and sister in Christ, "Neither can I! We are no different!!!! And I won’t say more! But I will abstain! And I am, because I have a goal." I have hope for more.

See… I know what ungodly relationships consist of and how empty sex feels with the wrong partner. I know all of that! I’m 40 years old, and I did not fall off the turnip truck yesterday! I’ve seen things: a lifetime of friends and family in unhealthy relationships. Most of my life I have chosen to be alone or my broken picker put me with wrong partners. I know what the world has to offer.

What I don’t know is what it feels like to be loved by a man. I don’t know what it feels like to be in a godly marriage. I don’t know what it feels like to be in a healthy Triangulation of God, husband, and wife. I don’t know what it feels like to truly make love. I don’t know what it feels like when God perfects the relationship and ordains it. I don’t know what it feels like to serve a good husband. I don’t know what it feels like for my husband to speak my love language. I don’t know what it is like to have a husband pray with me or read the Bible with me or teach me godly ways. I don’t know yet what God has to offer me.

I’d like to find out.

I’m seeking God only. I’m not going after men. I’m waiting for God to bring one to me. (I only need one!) But if He chooses not to, it will still be a very good time with God. Also it will apparently be a very lonely time apart from others while pressing so hard into them, because He is doing that for His good purposes! (Hurts like heck and Hades!!!)

God is doing all the work of purifying me and preparing me. Also I feel He is preparing me for a full-time ministry in missions, which I will do with my someday-husband. Maybe God will only set me in a ministry. Maybe He will only set me in a marriage. Maybe He will do both! Maybe He will do neither…. Who can say? I will just trust and obey.

I welcome your prayers during this difficult journey. Today my soul wanted to float away to Heaven and not remain alone anymore. I say that only to express the intense loneliness and sincere need for your prayers. Be blessed!

http://bible.com/114/psa.37.3-7.nkjv
Trust in the Lord , and do good; Dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. Delight yourself also in the Lord , And He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord , Trust also in Him, And He shall bring it to pass. He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, And your justice as the noonday. Rest in the Lord , and wait patiently for Him; Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way, Because of the man who brings wicked schemes to pass.

Lyrics for "Raised to Life" from Elevation Worship: (I’ve had it looping thru my headphones for hours tonight, because as of this week I finally have music on my phone! Yay!)
Sin was strong but
Jesus is stronger
Our shame was great but
Jesus is greater

Our sin was strong but
Jesus You’re stronger!
Our shame was great but
Jesus You’re greater!

Oh Jesus, You’re stronger! You’re greater! You are my only Hope! I trust in Your unfailing love! Do not let me be put to shame or be disgraced while I’m trusting in You so much for this and making it public, which may not have been the best idea. You know best, Lord! You lead me on level ground!

Sweet Jesus, all that I am is in You. All I want is in You and Your Kingdom, except for my two daughters who I pray You bring into the Kingdom! All I have, I give You! All I am, I give You. I have surrendered all to You. I want to do the things You do! I want to be like You if I can! If You are faithful, I will be faithful! If you are loving, make me loving! If You are compassionate, fill me with compassion! You say that You do what You see the Father doing, so I want to do what the Father is doing too! I want to be like You!! And I want to see Your face, Jesus! Oh how I want to! I long to see Your face! You can do whatever You want with me since I’m completely Yours!

No one expects You to use me, but do it, Lord! Show them Your strength empowering my weakness for great purposes! Show off, Lord! Make Your fame great thru lil bitty me, and surely they will know it could only have been the Almighty God! Even take this "Rudest Dudette" and make me beautiful and sweet and quiet and still for my groom. No one will expect it, You’re right!! I know, Father! They don’t believe in me! But You do! Thank You for believing in me. And I believe in You! You can use whomever You wanna! Use me to do mighty acts of kindness and love for many, if You want! No one will expect it. They will know it is completely You, God of Mercy & Love! It will surely bring You mighty praise! Accomplish Your will thru me and do whatever You want thru me! I will obey You!

That is all I have to offer You: my wayward tongue, my bent toward sin, my despairing spirit which is somehow also brave, and my obedience, which may be part time obedience at best! What a tool box! Right?! Haha! I know! But though none go with me, I will still go! If no one else stands up, Lord, here am I! Send me! You’re most worthy of praise, Lord! "Jesus Saves is our song everlasting!" Carry me another hundred days, Lord, if You will. And in Christ Jesus’ mighty strong name, I pray! Amen! (This is the August 17th post.)

99/266: Prayer for Healing?

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Still later, as the Eleven were eating supper, he appeared and took them to task most severely for their stubborn unbelief, refusing to believe those who had seen him raised up. Then he said, “Go into the world. Go everywhere and announce the Message of God’s good news to one and all. Whoever believes and is baptized is saved; whoever refuses to believe is damned. “These are some of the signs that will accompany believers: They will throw out demons in my name, they will speak in new tongues, they will take snakes in their hands, they will drink poison and not be hurt, they will lay hands on the sick and make them well.”

Dear Lord, show me Your truth for how to live life as a true believer and not as the damned. I seek understanding! In Jesus’ name amen! (This is the August 16th post.)

98/267: Dear Enemy, I Told Him Your Name

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Dear Enemy,

You don’t contact me, but I send you Scripture sometimes because you may not see Truth & Love otherwise. You don’t text me, but I text you often to ask how you are. If we do not have contact, I still pray for you. If I have blocked you or unfriended you online, I pray for you harder and ask God to help us each forgive.

You aren’t worried about me, but I am concerned about you and your welfare. You gossip about me and slander me for my past sins, but I only talk to God about you and ask God to forgive you for your sins and not hold them against you. If I need to mention you to others, I often call you simply "a friend." I don’t treat you as you treat me. Sometimes I slip into my old ways, but I quickly correct myself before God has to. Forgive me please.

You do not love me, but I love you. I am only this way because the Father first loved me. And because I love the Father, I also love you. I don’t want to be mean and uncaring the way I used to be; I want to be like my Father in Heaven. He teaches me to be loving as He is Love completely.

I have a book where I write my prayers for my friends, and I wrote your name in there. I pray for you nearly every day for God to give you good things, and I even ask Him to give you the best: Jesus and His saving grace! Since I wrote your name in my prayer journal, I don’t forget you. I ask God to write your name in His book too: the Lamb’s Book of Life.

I want to take you with me; I want to take you to my Father and my Savior. Let me take you to my Father! Let me introduce you to my Redeemer!! You’ll love Him and He’ll love you! He already does love you, because He sent me to find you, to love you, and to bring you Home.

In deepest love, 
Kelly (RKB)

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Dear World,

You have beaten me, abused me, used me for sex and other purposes, abandoned me, left me for dead, left me penniless, stolen from me, harmed me, hated me, shamed me, scolded me, had no time for me, rolled your eyes at me, given up on me, you have overlooked me, you have underestimated me, and have left me only scraps and leftovers. You gave me no reason to hope. You left me empty. You have not believed in me or my worth. I still cry often because of the pain you cause me.

But One has come to me who has chosen me, decided on me, and favored me. He has believed in me and taught me I have worth. He has called me by name. He has pulled me close when I was dirty and smelly, and He has loved me and called me His own Beloved. He knew I needed a Savior who was perfect so He died for my sin and debt so that I could have Heaven and be with Him forever. I have been Redeemed!

He has made me like Himself and I have tried to learn well. He has caused me to love you too, and He has caused me to seek to reconcile with you. I have been Reconciled!

And He has caused me to hope good things for you even after all the ways you have hurt me. He has caused me to forgive you, and I choose to forgive you for everything! I want us to to be Reconciled. I want you to be Redeemed!

Let me take you to my Father! Let me introduce you to my Redeemer!! You’ll love Him and He’ll love you! He already does love you, because He sent me to find you, to love you, and to bring you Home.

In deepest love, 
Kelly (RKB)

http://bible.com/114/jhn.5.19-20.nkjv 
Then Jesus answered and said to them, “Most assuredly, I say to you, the Son can do nothing of Himself, but what He sees the Father do; for whatever He does, the Son also does in like manner.  For the Father loves the Son, and shows Him all things that He Himself does; and He will show Him greater works than these, that you may marvel.

Dear Merciful Father, draw us close to You. Make us like You. Be Love thru our hands, feet, and mouths–in every way! Accomplish Your purposes thru Your people. I give myself over to You completely! I know I am not my own. I was bought by You for a great price so lovingly and I make myself Your servant to even love my enemy. I marvel at Your Wondrous Ways!! I worship You alone!

Some days when I am weak, I recount my enemies’ sins to You and remind You that You say You laugh at the wicked and that their day is coming!! But then I remember my own trespasses. And I focus not on others but on YOU AND YOUR GREAT MERCY AND UNFAILING LOVE! I keep my focus on You so that I can be changed! Save my enemies and lead them Home to You if You will. If they won’t acknowledge You, O King of Unlimited Power & Amazing Love, then justly smoke them all and let them burn!!!!! Truly! I completely agree with you on the Hell idea!

But as You want for none to perish, I want none to perish so let them have more time if You will! You gave me the right amount of time, and I trust You, JESUS, for all things! Please don’t hold my daughters’ sins against them, but send workers to draw them in and open their hearts! I pray the same for my other family members and my enemies whom I call by name to You nearly daily. Bless abundantly all of them and all of my friends too who are the Redeemed who trust in You and give them mercy, grace, love, peace, blessings, prosperity, favor, and greater faith to believe Your Word is True! Make us all holy so we can be like You, Holy God!

I pray for those reading this who need You that they know how much you love us so that You cause us to pray for those who hurt us. Do Your work, Father! Thank You for caring for me! I love you so much, Heavenly Honey! I trust in you, Savior! In the Trustworthy name of Jesus, I ask You to do these things, Amen! 

97/268: Christ’s Sufferings

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http://bible.com/114/1pe.3.18-22.nkjv
For Christ also suffered once for sins, the just for the unjust, that He might bring us to God, being put to death in the flesh but made alive by the Spirit, by whom also He went and preached to the spirits in prison, who formerly were disobedient, when once the Divine longsuffering waited in the days of Noah, while the ark was being prepared, in which a few, that is, eight souls, were saved through water. There is also an antitype which now saves us—baptism (not the removal of the filth of the flesh, but the answer of a good conscience toward God), through the resurrection of Jesus Christ, who has gone into heaven and is at the right hand of God, angels and authorities and powers having been made subject to Him.